About love

Love is such a weird thing. It can be wonderful sometimes, but if u mishandle it, it can be such a hurtful thing. Recently, i fall in love with a girl. She is my junior, taking the same course as me this semester. I was not so into her at the beginning when i first saw her. But as time goes by, i find her charming. She has a lovely smile that attracted my a lot, and her personality attracted me too. But i find her very cool, not so easy to approach, and especially we have different groups of friends in school, so we didnt get to talk much actually. It is recently that i started have chance to know more about her. We are preparing for exams, and I can help her in studies. It is such a motivation for me to have a chance to help her. So i will make sure that I know everything about our studies so i can help her, and she appreciate my help too, in a polite manner. Somehow i just feel like she just treat me as a normal friend, who can help her with her studies. I feel quite sad sometimes thinking about this, but after that i think that as long as she is happy, as long as i can help her, it is enough. I find it hard to understand her. I dont know what she want, i cant feel what she feel, and she seems to be quite shy and cool with me. But deep down in my heart, i know I have fall in love with her. I cant help but keep thinking about her, especially when i just wake up in the morning, the feeling is the strongest. This is not very pleasing, as I know it probably wouldnt works out right at the end. What makes thing worse is, i am running out of time. I will be having my internship after my exam, and she probably going back to her hometown, then next year i will be going to australia for 1 semester, and by the time i come back, she will be going there for the rest of the course. This means that these few days might be the last time i see her. i am really sad =(((.

Sometimes i feel that she has becoming  a  drug for me. I know it takes time to recover, but the process is going to be painful and suffering, mentally. Sometimes i rather hope i never met her before, so that i doesnt need to go through all these...

But , she cheers me up. I was so happy everytime i receive her text msg, even just a few words. She is so cool, sometimes i feel like surrender , i cant take it anymore.

Finally, hope that i can make her happy in the remaining day and say goodbye afterwards.